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f the snow. [08 Mar 2005|10:35pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

sooo shay, meghan and i decided for some crazy reason to go out tonight (hah my idea) and venture into this psycho blizzard that is outside. mind you i've had people telling me all day long how shitty it is outside and ya, i still went out. stupid. but anyways we made a good time out of it. besides the fact that it was near impossible to see at times hah. and i got stuck like 3 times. the rolla just cant take it sometimes. we went to dunks and decided to go to the drive thru... well lets just say meg and shay pushed my car up the hill to the window. haha. that should so be a dunkins commercial. haha ok we had fun though. the ride home was like HELL. im driving thinking to myself.. wtf was i thinking going out in this mess. oh well im home and im ALIVE. heck yea!

so anyway. i don't think there is very much to write about. i talked to scott tonight, i miss that boy. it's like we see eachother once a month. ew. it makes no sense at all. but oh well i still love him!! zzzzzPerf. ;)

last night marly slept over. heh. she sleeps in my bed so when i come home i have a lil person to sleep next to. (shes only 2) ha. she was tossin and turning all night last night tho, weird. buuuut she slept till 7am!! last week it was like 5 when she woke up i wanted to cry. hah. but its friggin awesome hah i love her!

hmm.. don't got that much else to say. even tho i havn't updated for some time now. i went to class on monday. hah. BOTH of them. hung out with some loser inbetween. which was nice bc i'd rather not sit at school for 3 hours and wait for my 2nd class. would you? didnt think so. i kinda actually enjoyed myself at class to for some reason. in drawing i drew a huge bowling pin. like literally my size. hah. i got a good laugh. and this kid that i talk to i THINK his name is julian? oh man im prolly SO wrong. but yea hes a nice kid. its just nice to have at least 1 person to talk to. i started talking to some kid in my graphics class too. ha, i was in a chipper mood on monday damn. his name is Reid. (i think haha) but ya i guess its cool right? welll i guess i'll go to bed now or something.

seeyou. :)

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tiffys bday! [08 Mar 2005|04:49pm]
i'll be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake.
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FIVE FEET. [04 Mar 2005|01:06am]
[ mood | high ]

dude, so insane. cant even explain this thing to you. it just really fucked me up. hah! woo! buuuut yea im going to bed now. GOOOODnight! <33

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damn.. [03 Mar 2005|01:19am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

"I'm a little hiiiigh.." haha so anyways, good times today, just chilled out most of the day yano. babysat my fave lil girl, Marly. shes too damn cute. GOSH! thennn had some visitors before i went over meghans for some faaackin dinnah. hung out with one of meghans friends marc for a while then went on a hootie with some hotties. ;) you fuckin know it. hahaha. me and meghan had so much fun tonight, haha we laugh about SOO much shit. it was pretty much wicked cool fun. we even got dunkaccinos! holy shit. wooo.
"this song reminds me of the summer.." hah. "OHH MYYY GODDD!!" dude. you wish you were there lemme tell ya. meg, she really does try real hard. but that song man.. WHEW! i f'ing love how you know what im thinking before i even say it. you suck. hah! but its good times. anywhooo. 112 days till DMB @ virginia beach. hahaha. so far away but that is so OKAY! more time to save money yano? lol. ok well anyways, im goin to bed i got faackin school tomorrow. ew. goodnight.

seeyou ;)

enjoyed my lovely visit today.. very very very much.
song of the day is..Collapse )

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you and i collide.. [01 Mar 2005|11:58pm]
[ mood | ::sigh:: ]


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dmb, virginia beach, here we commme!! [01 Mar 2005|03:28pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

June 23, 2005. meghan, shalyn and myself are taking a f'ing road trip to virginia beach to see the greatest man alive and also partyyy like its out jobs. holy shit. shays dad already agreed to getting us the hotel. dude.. cant even explain how siiick its going to be! meg and i have decided to put 25 bucks away each week for this trip. AHH!! anyone wanna join in on the festivities. because i would if i were you! :)

haha annie and i had a good chat about some stuff.

laur: but hes a loser
annie: losers are fun
haha no doubt bout that!! the riide aint over yet!! hah!

I’ll shine all night, and just like a star, I’ll fall for you..

Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you,
'cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me.

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quotes.. [26 Feb 2005|11:33pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I just can't help but realize how he's made me so weak.. that by the time he's ready to love me, i wont have anything left in me to love him back..

I am so ready to let go, just move on -be happy...But there is always this lil shred of...well maybe he'll want me tomorow. you know?

i just, i love it when he's around.. he knows me, he gets me- and i know that with him i never have to be anyone but myself.

take chances.. alot of them. cause honestly, no matter where you end up- and with who, it always ends up just the way it should be. your mistakes make you who you are... you learn and grow with each choice you make. everything is worth it. say how you feel- always. be you, and be okay with it.

I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me...

i couldn't help myself. im addicted to lyrics and quotes. oh my goosh!!

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steam roller. mmmm... =) [26 Feb 2005|01:07am]
[ mood | chilling. ]

This song is literally amazing. oh my god i freaking love it. whew. haha! just wanted to let you know bc ya im cool like that. enjoy<3

its always you in my big dreams.
big big dreamsCollapse )

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a walk down memory lane.. [23 Feb 2005|11:09pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

I dont know if you've noticed but most of these fuckin songs kinda sorta have some meaning behind them. teehee. that wasn't my intention at all ;) so yea i listened to this one on the way home tonight. and let me just say a great night. but yeah this fuckin song man gets me everytime. and i know every goddamn word to it to. anywhooo...

Crazy on youCollapse )

hoope you enjoyed that ha because i do! xD

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you'll someday find.. [23 Feb 2005|02:23pm]
[ mood | creative ]

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills my mind.
I somehow find,
you and I collide.

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you and i collide.. [22 Feb 2005|10:59pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

maybe someday you'll see.

sooo im lovin my journal these days. i got the codes to change my date and stuff it's pretty funky man. i love it! had a really laid back day today! well first i hung out with my girl britty. it's her birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY! we stopped by mikes saw him scott and moore. they're crazy. then brit dropped me off and went to dance her lil heart out at dance. hah. i came home and meghan stopped by and we drove around for a fewski and smoked a butt then she had to go to school. damn everyone was busy bees today. not me tho. oh yaa haha i went grocery shopping today that was some fun shit man! all by myself pushin the damn carriage through the aisles. wow i felt like a winner. ha!! then when i got home 2 cool boys called me up and stopped by for a while and we went to the 99 and got some good fooooooood dammit. even tho i ate dinner like 3 hours prior to that i ate so much. and i got ice cream too. bahaha! oh well! so now here i am being WICKED lazy. and i should totally be doing my math bc i have so much due or im gunna have to withdraw. EW! i need to jump on the band wagon and get my ass in gear here. GOSH!! well anyways, that was my day in a nuttshell. i'll catch you hotties lata. a b c ya! hah! good one huh?!

someone i know has a birthday in 5 days.. ohh my goodnessss!!

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we both can seduce.. [21 Feb 2005|12:27am]
[ mood | high ]

lately i feel like i've let a lot of people down. or maybe im just letting myself down. i dont know what it is. i dont even know if thats what im feeling but it's just really fucked.

annnyways. worked 12-8 today. that shit sucks man. buuut i dont have school in the am. HUGE and i mean HUGE plus. work/playtime/practice was fun. hah i call it all those things becuase it really just IS. i coach a cheerleading team that i was on for the past 2 years and half the senior team is my age. well 12-3 rosie and i got the lil youth kids but they're just too cute and so GOOD.then the juniors and seniors start comming in at 3 and practice starts at 4. so yeah from 4-8 i hang out with them. i coach them at the same time tho OF COURSE. ha. and when we have a laid back practice like todays its just 10x more fun. hah even tho i was doin some of the tumbling stuff with them and i kinda ate shit and got a rug burn on my elbow and slammed my head on the floor, IM OKAY! me and rosie even threw some baskket tosses tonight. f'in love it. my arms are already like dead so i cant imagine how they will feel in the morning. but damn dont u love waking up sore. bc i do. sure as the day goes on it SUCKS real bad but you gotta love it. haha! im so saying a buttload of jibberish right now but it's keeping my mind off of things and i spose it's not so bad. buuuut im ouuutie!! mad<33

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[19 Feb 2005|12:11pm]
[ mood | good ]

you're hiding something
cause it's burning through your eyes.
i try to get it out,
but all i hear from you are lies.
and i can tell you're going through the motions,
i figured you were acting out your part.
once again, we're playing off emotion,
which one of us will burn until the end?
catalyst, you insist to pull me down.
you contradict the fact that you still want me around.
and it's all downhill from here...

aren't lyrics fucking awesome. i cant get enough, EVER!!

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i'm soooooo caught up.. [19 Feb 2005|12:11am]
[ mood | weird ]

You've got your ball
you've got your chain
Tied to me tight tie me up again
Who's got their claws
in you my friend
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
and sweet you roll
Lost for you I'm so lost for you
You come crash into me
And i come into you,
I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

Touch your lips just so i know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I'm bare-boned and crazy for you
When you come crash
into me, baby
And I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

If I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you
to forgive me
In my haste
When I'm holding you so girl...
close to me

Oh and you come crash
into me, baby
And I come into you

Hike up your skirt a little more
and show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show your world to me
In a boys dream...In a boys dream
-Dave Matthews Band

me and meghan had a chill night tonight. didn't do to much but we made the best out of it. and towards the end of the night we popped in the old school DMB. it was amazing. hence the song above. dave is so wonderful. hah. so i've been feelin kinda weird lately. and i cant even begin to explain it. i dont really know what the deal is. hopefully i figure it out or something man. lol. im a little crazy sometimes. it's kinda early right now, 12:15.. meh. im thinkin about even making a pb&j then hittin the sack. i mean i DO get to sleep in tomorrow morning, and then meghan is comming over and we're gunna decorate my room. it's gunna be a hella of good time. lemme tell youu! my rooms gunna be pimpin after tomorrow. DAMN i cant wait. haha! well alright then im off to bed. goooooodnight! <3

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lolligagging.. [18 Feb 2005|01:59pm]
[ mood | content ]

happens to the best of us. right?
i only hope everything you said you meant.
peace out girl scout. xD

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wanker. [15 Feb 2005|04:14pm]
[ mood | amused ]


sooooo for the past like 4 days meg and i have done nothing but get hiiiigh. i bought a quarter on friday annnnd a new bowl.. pfff! im pathetic! see what happens when u get a check for 2grand u spend it on worthless shit. but hey i've been having good times! (meg you cant deny that you have been too) sooo i'm a lowlife and i skipped class totally yesterday. damn what was i thinking. i was just SOOO not in the friggin mood so i called doug and basically hung out there alll damn day. dont let me forget to mention it was the gayest day of the year. (valentines day) pfff!! my Ma dukes was my valentine!! i love her. and i fuckin miss her real bad!!! i hate florida i wish that damn state never exsisted. haha! not like she wouldnt have gone somewhere else but w/e. sooo yesterday. hung out at dougs.. and bunches of random people stopped by and we got high and stuff. i saw dennny! lol. sooo honestly i was planning on going to my seconds class yesterday but i didnt do that either. instead i got wendys.(by myself, NOT) then i went and hung the fuck out with meghan. hah. of course i get there we chill for like 10 mins then we went for a 'ride' then came back and we did homework (AMAZING) soooo yea thats cool huh? been some crazy shit goin on lately..but im just trying to ignore it. i mean maybe thats not the best thing to do, ignore it. but there is nothing else that i can do. so we'll see. ok..so now thats over with im gunna go.

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ew.. [05 Feb 2005|12:04pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

friends forever. yippe skippee.

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gimme my monneeey! [01 Feb 2005|01:41pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

another stupid trip to snhu again today. god damn that place.

i just want my friggin check and i'll be happy happy happy!!!
(you'd be happy too if you were getting a check for 2grand, right?!)

well, i gotta get ready for the day, even tho it's already 1:42. heh! catch ya latttaa. mad<3!!

ps. 'shit happens'
or at least thats how some people put it. fuckin loser!!

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school sucks. [01 Feb 2005|12:00am]
[ mood | artistic ]

sooo i'll admit, school officially sucks no matter what. ha! first off today i had drawing and grapic design. imagine me in a drawing class. WTF!! lol and the teacher didnt waste a minute, we got right to the drawing. both drawings of mine actually ended up comming out ok, which i was totally shocked about. people actually said it was good. haha! JOKE! so yea that class was 12:30 to 3:15 and my next class isnt till 6!! GOSH!! so anyways i hung out with doug and katt untill my next class. which happened to be in the same friggin room drawing is it. and wanna know what we did in that class, we fuckin drew. haha. being a graphic design major requires a lot of drawing i guess. i was actually getting a lil bit of a hand cramp. soo thennn I called jeffy on my way home but apparently he's too cool for school and doesn't pick up his cell phone. i just wanted to stop by and say hii but thats fine. ::coughdupeartistcough:: soo i went over to meghans and hung out with her for a while. and on my way home i saw James drive by and i had his sociology book that he needs for class but hes been such a lazy ass and hasn't gotten it till now so yea i met him at 711 and gave that to him. hes a mother fucker for sure. *hope you had fun james. hah! your lucky i didnt call you, i figured i'd be nice. xD
right so anyways.. that was my lovely day in a nutshell. wonderful wasn't it? i thought so thats why i told you about it.
hmmmm...so some things confuse me. or some people. and i think they know they confuse me but they still do it. DAMMIT! i'm prolly confusing right now but thats fine. some know what im talking about and some dont. yay for you if you do. haha. its like 'i just don't know' thats how i feel. and i guess i sorta want to know but at the same time i dont. it's like being afraid of what your about to find out. hah. what if its bad then you were better off just not knowing, yano? lol. im a loser. i just had to get that out. bc im confused and you all should know that. hah!
ok well now that its late and i dont have to wake up at all for anything tomorrow (fucking right doggy) im gunna hit the sac n' watch some tv. cause thats how i do. mad<3!!

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[28 Jan 2005|01:38pm]
[ mood | weeeeeeee!! ]

I was bored so here you go. READ THIS NOW!

First bike: it was barbie. ;)
First best friend(s): Tiff
First real memory of something: umm i dont even know!
First car: Toyota Corolla, and shes STILL goin strong!
First date: Wesley..hah!
First kiss: Wesley again.
First break-up: Prolly wesley.
First job: Pizza Man.
First screen name: LTSchicks
First self purchased album: Mariah Carey.
First funeral: My aunt.
First pet: My bird Cocoa. it died.
First piercing/tattoo: My belly button.
First independent home: hopefully soon..
First house/flat/apartment: -
First credit card: i got one last year. bad news bears!!
First love: Wesley or Brian..lol!
First enemy: jess d
First big trip: Florida or Las Vegas.
First play/musical/performance: Annie
First musician you remember hearing in your house: I dunno.
last good cry: hmm..i dunno ask meghan.. hah!
last library book checked out: god its been like 3 years!
last movie seen: Harold and Kumar go to White Castle.
last book read: i hate reading.
last cuss word uttered: I think i said the "c" word talking to jeff on the phone. lol! Meg and I had a good convo about that word last night bahaha!!
last beverage drank: waterr
food consumed: umm..pizza @ pizza night! :)
last crush: tah..
last kiss: heh. well lets just say he knows.
last phone call: Jeffy.
last tv show watched: umm.. Futurama for sure.
last time showered: yesterday. ha ew i know. but krys..us nh girls dont shower right! lol!
last shoes worn: my skechers.
last cd played: Eminem or Atmosphere.
last item bought: a nice baggy of maryjane.. xD
last downloaded: nothing.
last annoyance: hmm..last nighttt!
last disappointment: driving from pelham to manch for no reason!!!!! UGHH!!
last soda drank: coca colaaa!
last word written: colaaa!!!
last key used: backspace!
last word spoken: yuh!
last sleep: 2am
last im: dougy freshhhh
last weird encounter: hanging out with innis, blaise and stapleton last night. weirdd!
last ice cream eaten: rocky road!
last time amused: lassst night for sure!!!
last time wanting to die: never!
last time in love: right now.. ;)
last time hugged: aww i got a hug last night
last chair sat in: the one i'm in righttt now
last lipstick used: the hair show i was in like 2 months ago.
last shirt worn: the one im wearing right now.
last time dancing: hmm..ohh shit at megs the other night!!
last webpage visited: www.letssingit.com always!!

so yeah.. that was fun! but i'm going out now! me meg and shay are going to applebees then to pats peak to get our ski on. helll yes!! going to be one hell of a night! see yaaaa!!! mad<3

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